It's a new day.

"Don't start your day with the broken pieces of 

yesterday. Every morning we wake up is the 

first day of the rest of our lives."

I've decided to gain a new outlook on this program, because begging to come home because I am miserable is getting a little old. So now, I am not looking at this program as I have to survive X amount of days until I get to go home. I'm going to look at it as there's X amount of days until this once in a life time journey is over, so what else can I do in that short amount of time. 

I have been waking up every day worried about 'stepping on someone else's toes' or being so stressed about trying to keep my apartment cleaning that I haven't actually been living for me. I mean, yes, I do get to go on adventure to the park with some of my best friends. But I am usually not actually there I am always thinking about other things, or the things that I could change. 

Not anymore. 

The remainder of this program is going to be about me, every day is a chance to start over, to recreate something I've almost ruined. So instead of being miserable about having to go to work, or cleaning, or not getting to do something because I would rather have food money, I am going to make a difference in how I see this program. 

I still might not be able to do much, considering I really don't make very good money...But still there's a chance I could actually do a lot more than I think I could. 

"Some people just come into your life

and you just know you would 

never be able to replace them

if they left."

I just want to take the time to acknowledge three of my bestfriends on this program: Ashley, Amber, and Lindsey. Who through every step of this program no matter what was going on have always stood by me. They are the people I am going to miss the most when I leave in January...Because I know I won't have anyone in my life as special as these three girls. I have a lot of other friends here that I will miss dearly, but I know that I am going to remain in constant contact with these three. 

You don't find friends like them very often, that would move hell or high water to change the world for you. So thank you ladies for continually having my back through anything and everything that has hapened on this bumpy road. 

I love you all very much. 

on that note, I am off to get ready for my strange shift at work (1:30 P.M. to 7:30 P.M.) 

P.S. My vlog apparently took over three thousand minutes to half upload yesterday and still has another 400 and something, so it probably won't be up until tonight...fingers crossed nothing changes on that! 

Have a Magical day!