Busy, Busy, and Busy.

So, I know I haven't been very attentive to my blog lately. There's a reason for that, I've been writing a lot of stuff down in my journal lately, mainly so because a lot of it is stuff I cannot put out on the internet for everyone to read. There's been a lot going on with me lately, and I've been really stressed. This stress has been causing me to have a lot of anxiety/panic attacks...and I've only ever had maybe one or two of those in my entire life if I think back on it. I can usually handle my stress fairly well. But in this case, I think being so far away from home and not having anyone I really knew I could whole heartedly spill my guts too kind of freaked me out. 
Don't take that the wrong way, I have friends down here that I love and trust with my life. But sometimes there are just those select few people that you spill your guts to no matter what because you know they will tell you the truth, not what you want to hear. In this case that's what I needed, someone to tell me to step back and take a deep breath because at the rate I was going I wasn't making sure I was being healthy throughout the entirety of the situations. 

This wasn't just one event, it was several things to do with the environment I am currently in. It was a combination of my injury and work, and things at our apartment, and mainly more work. It's a lot to handle when you feel like you are all alone. Sometimes it all gets just to overwhelming.

Someday, everything will make perfect sense.

So for now, laugh at the confusion, smile

through the tears, and keep reminding 

yourself that everything happens for a 

Reason.

NOTE: There's a lot of stuff I won't be posting, due to it being either overly personal or inappropriate due to work.

10-01-2014

Since I stopped posting I did get to make a magical moment for a young guest that was visiting all the way from Philly. So that was exciting. She was telling me all about her night swimming in our HUGE pool, did a runway show to show us all her Barbie swimsuit. So we have this character cards that we give out, and I found one and said "Mickey Mouse asked me to make sure you got this." She screamed and hugged me. 

I spent my night that night watching bad horror movies with Libby, Nate, and Joey. That was interesting.  

10-02-2014

The day I 100% made up my mind: I WILL NOT be applying to extend my Disney College Program. I am actually excited to go home, with the events that have taken place so far this week it only cemented my decision. Also the day I came to realize that since I moved to Florida it's become 10X easier for my "Dad" to ignore me and break promises. (Thanks Dad.) 

Tonight I was also refereed to as "Carla" .... Is my name really that hard? K-A-Y-L-A. 

I almost for got, I got to help arrange a magical moment tonight. A guest approached me, he turned out to be a Disneyland Cast Member, and he wanted to set up a surprise for his Fiance for the last day of their stay with us at All Star! So I help him choose a gift and set up a drop off time, and he was so excited. Unfortunately, I have no way of knowing whether or not it actually worked out for him...But I really hope it did! 

10-04-2014   2:30 A.M.

Only one home, so naturally eating Ramen and watching 19 kids and counting. It's a glorious level of peaceful. 

10-05-2014

SO today I have a lot of good news that I haven't shared yet

1.) They waived my rent (FINALLY)

2.) WE got a raise to $9,00

3.) Tomorrow I am stripping my hair.

10-06-2014

Stripped my hair, hated it, realized I liked it going to keep it a shade of  red. It's been an interesting couple of days